{"id":260,"date":"2026-08-09T15:58:04","date_gmt":"2026-08-09T20:58:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/?p=260"},"modified":"2026-08-09T15:58:04","modified_gmt":"2026-08-09T20:58:04","slug":"august-9-2026-403-pm","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/?p=260","title":{"rendered":"August 9, 2026, 4:03 PM"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: I lead you into all truth. Right now, that means a truth that contradicts this fear<\/em> that leaves you stuck in bed shaking for forty minutes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> \u2026I mean, I\u2019m just traumatized. That\u2019s just normal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: (Gently) Stop it. Are you more interested in your reputation than your healing?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Here\u2019s the deal\u2026 I\u2019m afraid you\u2019re gonna have me post this online. And then people will see\u2026 well\u2026 actually, to be honest, I\u2019m kind of the only one saying anything wrong.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I mean like\u2026 \u201cjust traumatized\u201d isn\u2019t something I\u2019d say to anyone else. That\u2019d be super<\/em> insensitive. But to myself, it just feels… well\u2026 it doesn\u2019t feel like anything because the trauma leads me to shut off, but like\u2026 if I were<\/em> to feel anything, I think<\/em> I\u2019d feel noble.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: You think<\/em> you\u2019d feel noble\u2026 interesting. But that\u2019s not how you actually feel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Well, no. But as a man thinks in his heart, so is he. (I\u2019m well aware that this is a horrible misapplication of this verse, but I just want to avoid the topic)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Joshua, you\u2019re right! That\u2019s a great<\/em> verse to bring up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You\u2019re so right. And what do you think in your heart? You think \u201cI\u2019m too important to waste my time on emotion\u201d. And so you are<\/em>! Which means you don\u2019t heal, you waffle, you get stuck being busy in bed shaking for forty minutes. Which is so much better<\/em> than wasting time on your emotion!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> You know what\u2026 well, you\u2019re right. But I still want to find a way out of this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit:<\/em> (seems humored) Why?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Because, like\u2026 well\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Do you notice that you say \u201clike\u201d a lot when you\u2019re trying to avoid something?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Please don\u2019t interrupt me. Well, actually\u2026 please do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Joshua, it\u2019s pretty bold of you to ask the creator of the universe not to interrupt you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Well, like\u2026 it\u2019s rude! And I guess\u2026 well\u2026 it\u2019s not like you\u2019d forget that\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: There\u2019s \u201clike\u201d again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Well, what are we talking about again?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Read up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> No.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Joshua, listen to me. I want to heal you. I have to contradict your fear. Will you let me do that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> \u2026Fine. I mean\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Why is it that you are wanting to avoid it?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Well\u2026 I\u2019m actually having fun<\/em> avoiding it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Hmm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> I feel like we\u2019re playing hide-and-seek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: With a lie that kept you shaking in bed for forty minutes?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Why do you keep bringing that up?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Because I don\u2019t want that to be your new normal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Okay. But like\u2026 why don\u2019t you just miraculously provide for me so it doesn\u2019t matter?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Joshua, that\u2019s what I\u2019m trying to do right now. I\u2019m trying to defeat that lie. Are you ready?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> \u2026Yeah, I guess I am now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Okay. You keep seeing some present circumstances as repeats<\/em> of past ones. The data isn\u2019t the same. The people<\/em> aren\u2019t the same. If similarity were all that were needed for you to be traumatized, my disciples couldn\u2019t have continued ministry despite being beaten<\/em><\/strong>. You weren\u2019t at that level; you\u2019re traumatized. Your issue isn\u2019t that things are similar. It is what lies were fed directly into you<\/em><\/strong>, at those initial events. I want to break them. All of them. And they\u2019re common enough, they\u2019re worth sharing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Joshua:<\/em> Sharing is caring!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Holy Spirit<\/em>: Joshua\u2014it is. But you\u2019re still being avoidant. I want for you to start by writing down the lies, and then we\u2019ll talk through them. Obviously, we won\u2019t be sharing the specifics of those circumstances.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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  1. Lie: The most important thing to have is the longest runway possible<\/strong>. That\u2019s untrue. Obedience<\/em> is. There\u2019s a time for everything\u2014a time to gather stones, and a time to scatter. Lengthening runway is one of the most panic-driven decisions you can make<\/em>. Sometimes the runway shouldn\u2019t be lengthened\u2014at some point, you have to acknowledge that the plane isn\u2019t getting off the ground<\/em>.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
  2. Lie: If you sacrifice, and we succeed, that means the sacrifice was worth it<\/strong>. Not necessarily. Sacrifice \u201cat any cost\u201d. It is foolish<\/em>. Some sacrifices, even huge ones<\/em>, are worth it. Christ\u2019s death on the cross? Absolutely worth it. But staying up late for a year while your children grow up without a father, and then your business blossoms? Could be the absolute greatest mistake ever<\/em>.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
  3. Lie: The only thing preventing success is your sacrifice<\/strong>. That\u2019s not true. But you were fed that lie. Regardless of all the sacrifice already given; the response was not gratitude<\/em>, but instead demand<\/em>. \u201cThe leech has two daughters: Give and Give.\u201d Don\u2019t expect to find something on the other end of the leech; at the other end isn\u2019t a smile. Just give, and more give.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
  4. Lie: All resistance is spiritual warfare<\/strong>. Lies. When Elijah was exhausted, did I demand he push through the resistance? Spiritualizing exhaustion<\/em> is a great way to a spiritualization of BURNOUT<\/em>. And where do you go from there? Depression. Because suddenly, spiritual acts for me are measured by YOUR LACK rather than MY FRUIT<\/em>. Don\u2019t measure people by their lack<\/em>; but by their fruit<\/em>. And that fruit<\/em> should obviously have come through abiding in me<\/em>. You\u2019ll know them by their fruit<\/em>.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
  5. Lie: Satan doesn\u2019t want you to succeed, but God does<\/strong>. At what? At a project that is tearing down your psyche? Many Christian men and women have been ruined<\/em> through their own success. You know what I want? Relationship<\/em>. And I know that you trust me, through your obedience<\/em>. Your culture has a definition of success. I have another. Success may be the lesson you learned. Failure may be continuing past knowing whether or not your concept will work. Success may be being other peoples\u2019 stepping stone<\/em>. Failure may be keeping other people on a sinking ship<\/em>.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n\n\n\n

    You know what these all refer to. This next section is private. Speak freely. We need to discuss where these all came from<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    [We discuss the history of where I started to accept these lies.]<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    Joshua, break these lies in Jesus\u2019s name<\/em><\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    (I do)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    This is a beginning<\/em>. Expect to thaw. A lot of clutter was stuck in the ice. You\u2019re getting cleared out. And you\u2019ll feel a thousand pounds lighter<\/em>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

    Holy Spirit: I lead you into all truth. Right now, that means a truth that contradicts this fear that leaves you stuck in bed shaking for forty minutes. Joshua: \u2026I mean, I\u2019m just traumatized. That\u2019s just normal. Holy Spirit: (Gently) Stop it. Are you more interested in your reputation than your healing? Joshua: Here\u2019s the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-260","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-journal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/260","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=260"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/260\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":261,"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/260\/revisions\/261"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=260"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=260"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/todaygodtaughtme.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=260"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}